Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Alright enough of emo posts.
I decided i need to make some changes about myself. Changes as in EVERYTHING about myself.
Mum nagged at me taking pocket money everyday when i always have my meals at home. Then when i want to go out to study she'll nag and say " Why cannot study at home? See you study outside your prelims results also not good. "
Conclusion: Parents are always contradicting.
I'm like WTF. Then had a quarrel with her. I take pocket money also can save it for rainy day use what, why cant she understand?
It's been so long since i see my clique, kinda miss them & their crapping. But i know everyone's mugging like crazy while i'm still blogging! Hahaha, bingy reminded me to study though. Thanks darling~ [:
Sci Practical Exam & Lecture tomorrow!
Wish me tonnes of luck people!
Good luck to the people taking the exam tomorrow too [:
See ya peeps, FINAL HURDLE!
P.S-> Oh yeah, wont be updating till after the O's from now.
ALEX NEEDS A TURNING POINT IN LIFE. [:

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

HAHAHA! I came across a new Jay Chou song recently. Its very cute & has a very different style from other songs. Jay Chou fans its a must to listen to this! Even if you're not a fan of him, you can try to listen too! You must find the lyrics & find out what he's trying to sing too. =P Okay, here goes! 牛仔很忙




The MV is very hilarious! Jay actually dancing... hahaha.

It just feels like i've been kicked aside after being used.
All those words you've said, were they just casual remarks?
i tried damn hard to stop thinking but i cant.
i'll lose my mind if this continues...GRRRRRRRRR.
i wake up in the middle of the night to realise my pillow is wet & eyes swollen. ( wet not due to my saliva okay. )
well, i know i did all i could already, all i can do now is hope for the better...
Okay, vent my frustrations doing some exercises already.
FOCUS!
2 more days to Sci - Practical!
Bring me to somewhere far far away, where no one knows me.
Isolation

Monday, October 15, 2007

i'm really having mixed feelings now.
just cant seem to grasp what you're thinking.
this kind of 'blow cold blow hot' feeling really really sucks.
you're merely hurting me more this way.
all i want now is just remain like how we were.
& u made it seem so impossible.
you told me so many things that made me felt so happy.
but what's happening now?
is there any reasons that i do not know?
i wish i could rewind time.
everytime i want to send you a sms, i would end up deleting everything i typed.
nothing i write would seem to make a difference.
To be loved is definitely better than loving someone.
i guess you want to be alone now.
i will back off...
do remember there's always someone waiting.
i feel so detestable.
FUCK.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Okay i've been tagged to do a quiz by Vincent and its a very long one.. Here goes!

1. (the person who tagged you is...) My BUDDY - VINCENT!
2. (your relationship with him/her is...) Clique, Classmate, balling pals, Good friends!
3. (five impressions you have of him/her...) Great character, sensible, sarcastic, thinker, funny!
4. (the most memorable thing he/she has done for you) Giving some sensible advice to me when i need it..
5. (the most memorable words he/she has said to you) haha.. cant really remember but shld be rather insulting? hahaha!
6. (if he/she becomes your lover, you will...) Im straight, so is he!
7. (if he/she becomes your lover, things of he/she has to improve on will be...) Not possible right?
8. (if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...) Do nothing? Just dont get in each other's way, but definitely we wont! Good friends yah!
9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...) We provoking each other till our limits?
10. (the most desirable thing you want to do for him/her now is...) Help him in anyway i can in our studies?
11. (your overall impression of him/her is...) A very good friend to have (:
12. (how you think people around you will feel about you) Unfriendly, dao. But actually im not! (:
13. (the characteristic you love about yourself is...) Passion for basketball. never dies.
14. (on the contrary, the characteristic you hate about yourself is...) Shy. LOL.
15. (the most ideal person you want to be is...) Just wanna be me.
16. (for people that care and like you, say something to them...) Thanks for all the care and concern! I'll do the same if u treat me well! (:
17. (pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you)

#o1 Zacson OngZhongShou
#o2 Alicia Ho Mun Yee
#03 TeoChoonWei Jonathan
#o4 WongJinLong
#o5 Ames SuaFengAn
#o6 Chia Ming Xuan
#o7 Ferran Tan Fei Wen
#o8 Shauna Chng Chun Hui
#o9 Edmund Chan Siang Teck
#1o Valerie Ong Jia Yi


Sorry im just trying to fill up the empty spaces yeah... =P

(who is no.6 having relationship with?) Matthew i guess? Last long eh! (:
(Is no.9 a male or female?) Male! Correct me if im wrong. hahaha.
(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?) LOL.Ferran and Valerie. Not much has to be said anymore i guess? People from our school should know! Compatible! No offence though.
(What is no.2 studying about?) Alicia Ho. I don think she needs to study, EOYs just ended!
(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?) Jon teo! Erm probably 2 or 3 days back... (:
(What kind of music band does no.8 like?) Shauna? i seriously have no idea about this. hahaha.
(Does no.1 has any siblings?) ZHONGSHOU - only son!
(Will you woo no.3?) Im straight! But i guess he needs a girl about my height? hahaha.
(How about no.7?)Nope of course. hahaha.
(Is no.4 single?) Jinlong! Single & Available i guess? hahaha.
(What's the surname of no.5?) ai mai? mai SUA!
(What's the name of no.10?) Valerie Ong Jia Yi! MEOW~
(What's the hobby of no.4?) EAT!!
(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?) Yeah definitely, both are soccer mates! & pros too!
(Where is no.2 studying at?) CCHY!
(Say something casual about no.1) Funny like a clown!
(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?) Shauna? No no no, im not her type and she's not mine. (:
(Where does no.9 live?) Edmund! Admiralty i guess?
(What color does no.4 like?) Vincent says its black, so black it is! (:
(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?) Haha yeah, they are classmates and partners too!
(Does no.7 likes no.2?) Ferran & Alicia! Hohoho. sparks may fly! but ferran has his targets... (:
(How did you get to know no.2?) Alicia, through msn? hahaha.
(Does no.1 have any pets?) Hamsters! very cute!
(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?) Yeah sexy with his height.. able to win the attention of the girls (:

Phew! Finally finished the whole quiz. Im off to study now. TATA~
MUG HARD PEOPLE...

好想你 . . .

Friday, October 12, 2007

You guys must watch this man! Greatest voice - VITAS!


new song on my blog. named Hao Peng You which is sang by Luo Zhi Xiang.
this song seems to match my emotions now, and expresses my how i feel.
the lyrics goes . . .
像两首节拍不同的歌 却又同时被爱情合奏旋律勉强着 愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中 有宽阔的天空 但空气好稀薄曾经以为等待会改变什么 你总会属于我但是最后时间证明了 你只喜欢我
你说我 比较像 你的好朋友 只是不小心拥抱着你道歉 你难过 于是我给你笑容 谁在乎我的心 还会不会寂寞
如果爱情是五线谱 我曾希望用全音符 吟唱出 爱上你那完整的幸福 但你的心没有耳朵 即使我 为你唱着歌
你也只 看见我 哭了 你说我 比较像 你的好朋友 只是不小心拥抱着你道歉 你难过 于是我给你笑容 谁在乎我的心 还会不会寂寞
曾经以为等待会改变什么 你总会属于我但是最后时间证明了 你只喜欢我
你说我 比较像 你的好朋友 只是不小心拥抱着你道歉 你难过 于是我给你笑容 谁在乎我的心 Ho 还会不会寂寞
你说过 我是你 最好的朋友却不应该再拥抱着 你退缩 你冷漠 于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心 会永远的寂寞
i dont just wanna be your friend...
hurting.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

mixed feelings & all.
i seriously DESPISE you man.
mother fcuking disgrace to men.
all the pain you brought to her.
you should just vanish from earth.
i would really want to give u a good beating if i could.
go FUCK yourself.
CB.

Monday, October 8, 2007

Graduation


Alright, as you can see from the title above, this post will be dedicated to my close ones in CCHY to thank them for everything they have done and the wonderful memories i had with them.


Firstly, there is my clique of brothers who are always there for me.


Jonathan Teo - The first friend i made on the first day of school when i stepped into Sembawang campus. My initial impression of him wasn't quite positive i must say, but gradually i got to know him better and i realised he's an interesting friend. Though we did have some misunderstandings in the past, but i think it made our friendship even stronger and bonded us closer. He's not only one of my best pals and he's my partner in basketball too. I bet we won't ever forget the days we trained in basketball. Excel in piano playing my friend! Due to him, i got to know two guys who are also in my clique too.


They are Vincent and Ferran.


Vincent Tan - A person who always talks logic and sense, with strong leadership and influence too. Our common topic is mostly about NBA & basketball but its really great to have his company around. Oh ya, he can always talk sarcastically, maybe thats why we could click well. All the best to you in playing euphonium, hope to see you in some major concerts! Keep in touch!


Ferran Tan - Got to know him in sec 1 but wasn't on close terms with him as far as i remember until in sec 2 when we started to have our meals together during recess. He's very friendly and nice to talk to. Overall he's quite a nice chap and has a unique charm that made him so popular with girls, or maybe its him trying to get close with them, this i'm not too sure. But i know he treats friends well. I hope you can get into the school you want & grow as tall as your brother. (:


Through Vincent i got to know a guy named Zhong Shou as they were bandmates and also good friends.


Zhong Shou - A super entertaining friend with his antics that could amuse almost everyone. He's also very friendly and always cheers me up and also gives advice when i meet with problems. Being with him is never boring as he has the ability to make himself high as well as doing it to other people. Please study harder and perhaps we can go into the same poly after O's. Don't give up on yourself & good luck. (:


And through ZhongShou i got to know Bing Guang.


Bing Guang - Fwah, a very special surname yeah? He's one of my closest buddies in school and i think he's a good person to confide in as he will lend you a listening ear and give constructive advice to guide me along. And he always accompany me after school when we've nowhere to go. Thanks darling! (thats a term we call each other but we're straight.)


Last but not least there is Jason!


Jason Ong - A super nice chap i got to know only last year, he's very helpful too. Thanks for helping me buy mi fen mian during recess! And he's very good in his studies too, i always see him helping Jonathan in his studies. A really nice person to befriend. All the best to you too!


I will never ever forget the times we had together, balling, singing, crapping, shopping and many more! I love you guys. ( friendship okay. :P )


I hope all of us will be able to keep in touch after 'O' Levels, be it meet up for basketball or even just to chit-chat to catch up with one another yeah? Brothers for life!



Okay, now for the girls that i got to know in 1A & 2D.


They are Fidiria, Valerie, Veronica, Lily, SweeLian,TingHui & PuiMan.



They form the seven dwarfs! Ms Wong as Snow White & me as the... Prince. I know i may sound disgusting and childish, but they are beautiful memories!


Fidiria Tan - One of my close female friends i had in sec 1 & 2 whom i could talk anything with her under the sun. Remember the days we went shopping? Though we don't usually talk in school now but it's really nice knowing you. Thanks for the pleasant memories we had together. No regrets at all. (: Hope to stay in touch even after we part yah? Don't forget me! All the best.



Valerie Ong - Garfield! She's also one of my closest female friends i had and i really enjoyed her company, we used to hang out together and confide in each other. But we dont talk much anymore. It's quite a pity but i cant help it as we have our own social circle of friends. I really miss you as a friend, your company is missed! I remember i used to bully you and your reactions were always so amusing. A very nice friend who would give wise advice too. Thanks for everything in the past! You'll not be forgotten yeah?



Veronica Ang - She's a great friend who never fails to cheer you up when you're feeling down, provide help when needed. I know we had some disputes in the past, but i hope we are still friends. (: She can be really wild when she's high, i bet the people in her class would understand. But that's what made her so natural. She's also a friend who's able to keep secrets well. My ah-ma! (: All the best to you in future!



Lily Low - She came to our class 2D in sec 2 and i got to know her when we started talking in Chinese class. She's also amiable and cheerful to everyone in class. I used to confide in her and we could chat about any topic too. But after we went to different classes, we didn't have much chances to speak to each other anymore. Oh ya, she's my mummy! A term i used to call her in the past. Kinda miss those days. Good luck to you in getting into the courses you want! Keep in touch too.



Swee Lian, Ting Hui & Pui Man - I'm not exactly close to them but they've been my classmates for 2 years in lower sec but i know they are good friends! I want to say thank you to you all for everything too! (:


Peggie, my disciple, also helped me in one way or another when i had problems (:


Peggie Lim - Only got to know her in sec 3 i think? My initial impression of her is very dao and hostile. haha so i didn't dare to even say hi to her in school. But as time goes on i got to know her better and i found out she's actually not what i expected her to be. Thanks for all your care and concern all this while! But we never talked face to face in school before, aww so sad. =/ All the best for O's !


Now for the two besties in class besides ZS & Vin, they are Ames & Jack Ken.



Ames Sua - My singing partner in class! He always sings with me anytime anywhere. & he's got alot of talent, magic composing songs and etc. Impressive huh? haha, he's always entertaining people and teasing people. One of our 'happy fruits' in class. Thanks for always trying to cheer me up when i emo okay. Great friend you've been. (:

Jack Ken - Gamer! Lol, he's obsessed with online games,and he's almost a pro in everything he plays. But he's quite serious when it comes to studying too, and as he sits beside me, we always study together! I'll remember the times we always listen mp3 and do math papers together! Stop gaming for this crucial period of time and study hard okay? Good luck for your O's!

Okay, got 1 person called WONGJINLONG want a post from me. hahaha.

Wong Jin Long - HEY GIRL. though we seldom talk to each other, but i can see that you're a GREAT FRIEND. hahaha, just realised you're quite a nice friend to talk to la. anyway, hope you study hard and achieve good results! Jio me go out study, u say one arh! (:

The guys i met in 2D were a bunch of good friends in this 4 years i spent in this school too.


They are namely Hong Tat, Yong Ern, Wei Xuan, Yujian, Yong Siang, Zhi Yong and Chin Ping.


Though we don't really talk to each other after sec 2, i believe the 2D spirit remains in our hearts. I'm looking forward to our 2D chalet my friends! (:

All the best for your O's and your future life. I won't forget you people. And to the people whom i did not mention in this post, it doesnt mean that you are not important! I'll remember every single friend i made in CCHY. To all the graduating sec Fours, i hereby wish all of you good luck for the upcoming 'O' Levels, strive hard!
I'll miss the school, as well as the students and teachers.



As we go on, we remember, all the times we, spent together . . .



With love! (:



Saturday, October 6, 2007

i need to relax.
i need peace.
i need to be alone.
for a moment, i felt redundant.
so many things to say, nobody to talk to.
emotional or whatever, i don give a fuck.
this feeling sucks.

Thursday, October 4, 2007

My 20th post! lol, i didn't expect to write so many posts yet not think blogging is boring. (:
3 more official schooling days & we would be graduating from the school. Just 3 more days and our sec school lives would end. Thinking back at the times when i first stepped into Sembawang campus just felt like yesterday.
Time flies. How true.
Hmm, graduation post would be coming up very soon so stay tuned people =)
School's seriously boring, mock papers everyday and thats how life is before the O levels.
Graduation presents are seriously gonna cost a bomb, & im like not saving enough for it. Gosh. =/
Alright, short short post. Nothing much to blog about anyways.
Where'd you go, i miss you so...